Working With A Half-Hearted

It is never a good idea to work with a half-hearted.

I am the type of person who couldn’t be questioned about my responsibility. Why? Cause people know I know my priorities and they know I do them on a perfect timing. They can leave any work or damage to me and I can end up waving it with flying colors. Even if I don’t want to, if that’s my responsibility or even if it’s not actually, I will get it done. That’s me.

I have these consecutive conversations with my sister. I was trying to get her to help me in making money. I have lots of plans. I can’t stop thinking of options to get an income. That was me. But everytime I talk to her, it will always start good and always end up with a question mark. When we get to details, she keeps on asking questions as if the things we talked about is out of reach and too impossible to be done. I asked her to find venues for the recital of our school and told her to finish it in a week. She extended her due date but in the end, I still don’t have the details.

I don’t like to brag but I could’ve done it by myself and finished everything in a week — every detail I need in only a week. But she didn’t. She just canvassed prices. She haven’t even sent the letter of intent to the venue we are targetting. She doesn’t know if the venue is available at our target date. I am pissed. I am pissed somehow because I could’ve done better. If only I can do everything all at once but I can’t. I have lots on my table and I can’t do it alone.

Everybody needs somebody. And I don’t want to be that somebody who pushes anyone who wants to be let in my life. I can’t be secure enough only to myself because I only trust myself. No! I can’t be that person so I keep trying. I keep trying to share tasks and responsibilities but most of the time I get frustrated on results. I try to be patient. I try not to comment and just let it pass but sometimes being still human, I can be pissed to.

I would gladly give all my time for a favor a friend asked me to do. I would give my whole heart in that work even if I don’t want to because I give importance to people and I weigh the importance of the task for the people who asked for it. But see, that’s the thing, that’s only me and my day would be ruined if I keep comparing others from me and I’m not perfect… I do stupid things too. I can’t judge people on how they handle their responsibilities but maybe just a part of me is longing for an equal in my work.

Have you ever worked with a half-hearted? It isn’t fair, right? If they don’t want to, why say yes in the first place? It would also be a torture for them doing what they don’t want to do.


13 thoughts on “Working With A Half-Hearted

  1. I think some people get overwhelmed by the actual details and that anxiety prevents them from diving into a project. Sometimes when I think about the big picture and everything that needs to be done to get there, I feel almost as fatigued as if I have actually done all those things. I don’t know, it’s weird.

    • I think that maybe nobody will ever love work purely because it’s a responsibility and a necessity. It’s very seldom to have a career you like. For example, work would be more favorable to musicians because they love playing music and they are paid for it. Others are just left with paper works in an office.

  2. I have experienced similar situations and it can be frustrating. Unfortunately not everyone is organised and effective at getting things done. All you can do is try to nudge them in the right direction.
    I guess the world would be pretty boring if we were all the same. If you look hard enough most people are great at certain things, embrace your differences as normally it’s possible to learn something from everyone you meet in life.

    • You’re right! I guess that’s the best thing we could do – nudgd them in the right direction. And yes, life wouldn’t be in a balanced if everyone is the same. We need to adjust and adapt to every person we meet.

  3. Don’t let your luggage define your travels, each life unravels differently.We all do better when we work together. Our differences do matter, but our common love matters more.Wait and coach your sister, maybe she will learn or maybe this just isn’t her. Love her all the same. 🙂

  4. I can relate to this. However I have a tendency to put too many things on my plate. It is ironic, because I hate to be busy,busy,busy all the time. I have a hard time asking for help because I have the “I’ll just do it myself” mentality– an idea that I CAN’T rely on anyone. I’ve learned,however, that letting others help is a gift. Because they want to. It brings unity to the relationship, even if you could have done it better yourself. That can be a hard pill to swallow!

    • Yeah. Having another set of hands to help would make the load lighter. I guess that if they are 100 % into it, then it would be better. I was used to having that same situation of getting every possible work done on my own but it’s just too tiring if you’re alone. 🙂

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