Push

Overfatigue. Cancelled all my classes this afternoon. Feels like I’m always reasoning out but things keep on coming. I’m so tired about everything but I don’t want those things to be reasons for me to give up. My battery is low, my brain is in a chaos, my body needs more than 2 hours of sleep and my tummy needs more than 1 regular meal a day. I’m desperate for prayers. If you are reading this post, please take a minute or two to pray for me and my family. We really need it. Thankful for all my friends who’s always there for me. You know who you guys are. Just like you to know how blessed I am to have you around. Thankful for all our students patient enough to bare with a lot of changes in our school. You’re one of the reasons why I keep on pushing. Thank you! I promise not to quit. #st

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Wanting Two Places At The Same Time (Part 1)

I was just browsing my instagram feed earlier then I cam across my friends’ profile. They’re baristas (oh no, not in starbucks) and they really like making coffee. It is their passion. Saw pictures of them making coffee in different stores & restaurants here in Manila, competing in different contests in asia and now videos of them at brewing a coffee in the US. I’m happy for them and at the same time inspired… also somewhat jealous, I guess?

It is inspiring how people chase their dreams especially when they finally reached it. I just love the idea. I want that too. But somehow dreams, I guess, it’s not the right time for me yet. Everytime I try to push myself to chase that dream, problems come along the way waving a banner telling me STOP. Well at least for just a while.

Seeig their instagram profiles made me dream better. We don’t have the same passion or dream but I am hanging on to mine. I want to be a singer songwriter and a performer someday. Who knows maybe not just here in Manila but maybe I can share my songs to the whole world too. I said to myself NO. I WANT THAT TOO. STOPPING WON’T DO ME ANY GOOD. I’LL CHASE FOR IT EVEN I MAKE BABY STEPS FOR YEARS. AT LEAST I AM NOT STOPPING.

Someday, I’m not going to stay here stuck with my problems at home and at work. Someday, money can’t hold us back. Someday, I will make my own songs, perform around the world and be paid for it. Someday, I will share my talent and finally make a foundation teaching and helping street children music for free. SOMEDAY.

I hope that SOMEDAY will be SOON.