Overfatigue. Cancelled all my classes this afternoon. Feels like I’m always reasoning out but things keep on coming. I’m so tired about everything but I don’t want those things to be reasons for me to give up. My battery is low, my brain is in a chaos, my body needs more than 2 hours of sleep and my tummy needs more than 1 regular meal a day. I’m desperate for prayers. If you are reading this post, please take a minute or two to pray for me and my family. We really need it. Thankful for all my friends who’s always there for me. You know who you guys are. Just like you to know how blessed I am to have you around. Thankful for all our students patient enough to bare with a lot of changes in our school. You’re one of the reasons why I keep on pushing. Thank you! I promise not to quit. #st
“You’re a familiar place, a steady state of mind, in silence. Lead me down to the unspoken, breathless and with my heart broken. See through me in the absence of you see. Hide what isn’t me in the presence of your ability. Amen.”
I thought I was writing a poem or a song but then I ended up doing a prayer. It seems like He’s my greatest inspiration of all. I have never felt loved the way he did. I have never felt that feeling of being special and important than I know in my heart that even I am a little of value, He needs me more than I (being only human) can ever need Him.
I don’t know what my purpose in life is but I love living it just because somebody loves me. And I can’t ever help myself to feel that feeling being found and can never ever be lost again. I feel safe and secure as if I can never be hurt and if I do, I wouldn’t be left alone. I would have arms around me and I could lie next to Him feeling better no matter what. I don’t (as in never would) want to hurt anybody because somebody would never ever want to quit on me.
The way He believes in my heart, I can’t ever explain but my heart is pure and I can never want to resist good because He is good. Good enough for me to be good for somebody too.
Lord, let me not ask you about anything at all. Let me take a little of your time to thank you for everything that you have done – for me and my family. I know you keep me safe… always even if I don’t ask you to. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I assure you that you won’t be just a memory. I love you and you know I always do. Hold my heart and hold my hand. Let me see this world only through your eyes and help people realize how beautiful life really is. Please never ever let go of my hand. Amen.