Dark Chocolate Kiss (Original Composition)

Ignorance keep calling out my name
Tellin’ everyone that I’m the one to blame
But honey, she was wrong
I didn’t do anything at all.

Hard head, can’t feel anything
Turn the lights on, my vision has turned to gray
Soft lips, a dark chocolate kiss
Time’s up, say your goodbyes

Oh this feels so good
Oh I never wanted this
But oh it this is so damn good

Uh-oh I’m afraid to let you know
Uh-oh I’m afraid I like it so
Uh-oh no, no, no, no
Uh-oh no, no, no, no

Ignorance keep calling my name
Tellin’ everyone that I’m the one to blame

This is, isn’t is, isn’t what it is
I never felt that soft gentle lips
This is, isn’t is, isn’t what it is
I never tasted that sweet dark chocolate kiss

Love Is Easy

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. Real love is simple, everyday kind of thing. A smile, a hug, an encouragement. Continuous love without effort. –

-MFG

I recently opened an app on facebook. It’s called Message From God. Yes, people make these and somewhat share thoughts and advise to people. Maybe you can say that it is quite similar to WHAT WOULD JESUS DO. Or for non Christians more like a message from a fortune cookie or a horoscope I guess.

So there, the message above is the one I got. It made me reflect and agree to it. LOVE IS EASY.

We make it complicated. We make it hard to understand. We make it unreachable. We make it as if it is a big goal to achieve. But love is here and in everything.

You can get it with a smile, a touch, a tap on the back, a hug or a kiss. Love is a Hi or Hello from a friend or a stranger. Love is a sorry from your enemies. Love is respect for the elders. Love is a passion for your art.

Love is simple and it is not painful if and only if we love selflessly.

The only hindrance of love is to think too much of ourselves — to love and to ask for something in return, to love but to set limits, to love but don’t share happiness.

I’m back to my 50 % straight self. Yes, gay that is.

Just so everyone knows, I’d like to announce that I am bisexual. I like boys and at the same time I like girls too. The things is… I don’t like it. I want to be straight – it’s a looooong story.

So it has been almost 2 years since my last relationship (a girl) and ever since then, love life isn’t my priority. For that time, I felt that I am 90% already. Ha! Ha! I had real guy crushes but had unavoidable girl crush last year. I got over it – yes, the girl part. It was just a phase and I am back to really liking guys as in like “like”.

Last saturday, I went home 70-80% straight. Is it weird that I measure my straightness? Lol! So what, who cares? Hahaha! What happened? – that’s the question. 

Incident #1: I was kissed by a friend (girl). Well, not lips to lips… just on the cheek. I felt weird about it because it was just out of the blue. We were not saying hello or goodbye. We were having a light and fun conversation. I was joking around because I waited for her for 3 hours.  She was saying sorry and suddenly kissed me. I acted like nothing happenee and continued fooling around.

Incident #2: While we were waiting for the train, still having that light conversation and fun fooling around, she tried to hold my hand – as in the one with interlocking fingers. It didn’t last long cause I was really distracted. I think I looked at our hands and she felt conscious or shy about it?

I don’t know. Right now, I am really confused because I was having this super duper tiny crush on her and I like that we were getting close. I got really confused on what she did because I know she is straight… though I sensed it the first time we met (I don’t have a crush on her at then) that she has tedencies and my gay and lesbian friends said that themselves too.

I was aking myself the questions like Are there girls that are just too clingy, touchy, and expressive to that extent? Do some girls really kiss other girls on the cheek for no reason or as a regular expression and without intention?  And if she knows that I am bisexual, shy whould she do that? Does she know that maybe I would think of it differently?

Seriously guys, if you have answers to my questions, please feel free to do so cause I can’t stop thinking about her since that day. I don’t want to expect anything and seriously, I am really avoiding myself to like girls. So there, I am almost going back to my 50 % straight self.